Confession Point

i like watching a porn movie and masturbated when i got stressed out but in front of a people i’ve said that i don’t like ,and i feel so disgusting with myself

I’m 19 and my best friend’s sister is 23. We’ve had a thing for each other since we were little kids, but I never pursued her because I didn’t want to put any stress on my friendship with her brother. Her brother and I are tighter than most real brothers

Anyways…

I went over to see my friend at his house for some Friday night drinking and smoking and his sister answered the door. Ben had called to leave a message for me that he had to work late and wouldn’t be back for 3 hours. He asked that I hang with Meggin until he got back.

Meggin and I had a few beers and then smoked a giant blunt of some really epic shit. We got to talking about the attraction we’d always had for each other and one thing led to another and we started making out. Before I knew it we were ripping off each other’s clothes.

She went for my zipper and pulled out my cock and sucked on it like it was the last penis she was ever gonna see.I wanted to fuck Meggin, but didn’t want to disappoint my friend. My hard cock won out, of course, but before fucking her, I thought I’d return the favor by licking her pussy for awhile. She had a hot little ass and I slapped her cheek as I pulled down her panties and tried to maneuver my head in between her hot thighs. OH NO! What the fuck is that smell? I almost puked right then and fucking there. Her pussy stunk like a dead fish on the dock in August. It not only stunk. It really stunk. I had to turn my head away quickly because I could feel the chicken salad sandwich I had for lunch starting to come up my throat. “What’s the matter?”, she asked.
“Nothing”, I replied. I had to get out of there before the smell started burning the hair off of my body.

“Look, Meggin, I’m sorry, but all of a sudden I got a horrible toothache. I have to go. I’m sorry. Tell Ben I’ll catch him tomorrow,” I was zipped up and out of that house in 30 seconds.

Now I don’t know what to do.I haven’t called either of them and they haven’t called me. It’s been two days. I don’t want to lose my best friend, but there’s no way I’m ever going to be able to look at Meggin again.

I’m screwed.

Several years ago, when I was 19, I did a thing I’m not so proud of.

Some of you might say I’m lucky, but hear me out.
I was in love with a girl, we used to be together for a couple of years. Meanwhile, I met another girl, which was as wonderful as my love, but in different ways. She was everything my other was not… So we got together, each of them knew that I was dating the other.

I loved both of them, and they both loved me.
But I got them thru manipulation. That’s what killed my happiness. It is a wonderful thing to be love and be loved by two girls at the same time; but never do what I did. I was making them suffer :(.

I used to be somewhat of a man-whore. Never got the girls in high school, then went to college and things just clicked for me. Settled down in a ltr for two years. Now thats over, forgot all my “game”, and remembering all those girls I hurt in the past is keeping me from re-entering that player lifestyle. I’m looking for another gf but to satisfy my libido for now, I bought one of those Fleshlights. Basically, I bought a vagina.

i fall for the worst boys.
i fall for the ones that cheat, that lie that are just bad for me.

there’s this boy in my 2nd block.
oh man is he sexy.
i dont even pay attention in class anymore.
i just put my head down and fantasize about having sex with him.
hes always telling me how big his dick is, and i want it so bad. but he has a girlfriend, and he talks to a girl that i know. BUT I WANT HIM.

i wanna be the girl he talks to everyday and every night. i wanna be the girl he gives head to and fucks from the back. i wanna be his girl

the sad thing is, just because i fall for the baddest boys, he WILL cheat on me. and i will be the one looking stupid -_-

i have fucked almost 30 people and im only 17. I got an std and had unprotected sex with 7 people after…i feel awful. i think im addicted to sex.

I’m a total cunt. I dump my boyfriend after cheating on him, and I act like HE’S the bad guy. But I totally feel that way. I want him to come back and I have to give up.
This isnt much of a confession, i kinda want to kill myself. Im sick of who I am.

i had sex wid my ex like anal and everthnn and NO 1 noess cuzz lusin ur Virginity is a HUGE thng where i come frm and it hurtss tthat i lostt it i alwayz wanted to save it till i got marriedd and lose to myy husbandd
i cry soo muchh at timess wen my frndzz brag abt how deyy stil havv thers
fuckk WHYD i doo it :'(
ahhhhhhh

i lied so much to my girl and she still forgave me. i did so much bad things and i cant even start to explain why. I still lie to her. i cheated and schemed. all i want to do is be truthful to my girl because she is what i need and i am so sorry fro all that i did

i stole money from my dad, and he has just died. i loved him so much, but i just compulsively wanted things cuz life felt so empty. i also lie about working hard when sometimes i dont always. i also need to stop watching so much tv, but it makes me feel like i have friends.also when i was 8 i was talked into taking something from a store, but then i ran away and never seen her since.

I just got busted on a totally idiotic thing I did a few weeks ago, making me so ashamed that I just needed to tell someone to get it off my chest.

I was with this guy for approximately four years. It was not a good relationship, he put me down and cheated on me repeatedly. I always had suspicions, as he would be very secretive about his computer, his email, his chat clients etc… we moved abroad together last year and right before the move, I found out he had cheated and made him confess to it. I decided to let it be because of the move. This guy was very disparaging and manipulative and finally, after a couple of months, I had had enough. I broke up with him, he brought a girl back to our place the same night. I found out he had actually been dating her and another girl for a few weeks before the breakup. It was pretty bad, first he tried to get me back, then he became controlling, even more manipulative and violent. Finally, he moved back home and I decided to stay on my own.

So, I have this stupid habit of googling people’s names. Childhood friends, family, myself, exes, my partner’s exes etc. And I’ve googled this guy a few times. Recently, I found him on a dating community. I registered a user, using my own email, to look at his profile and then immediately afterwards deleted the account. Little did I know that this community notifies its users everytime an aim contact opens up an account. And, he emailed me today, tellling me to stop spying on him. I denied ever doing it (though I did it a lot when we were together, to try and find evidence of his infidelity). He emailed back with a picture of the notification he got when I registered, and my username is his visitors’ log. So what do I do? Deny, deny, deny! I said I didn’t do it, but that I had let someone borrow my email account.

I feel physically sick, not so much because of my ex busting me, but because I am behaving like this even though I am with a new person, who is absolutely perfect in everyway and I know I will marry eventually. I don’t understand why I am obsessively looking for this type of information, and it’s not only my ex, I also look for information on my new boyfriend’s exes. Not telling him will make me feel like a crazy person (which I am not, this is a behavior rooted in being cheated on and developing a very low self-esteem) but if I tell him, I will make his disappointed. He would never do anything like this. He is genuinely the kindest and gentlest person I know.

I hate myself for doing this.

I have confess, I made up the EmoWolf23 story. I thought it’d be funny. Now I see the flaws of my actions. I will kill myself.

I’m a boy 18 years old and have a 16 year old sister that I play jokes on all the time. Boys are always hiting on her because she’s very prety. I told my friend I had caught glipses of her naked and she’s a knock out. My friend wished he could have seen her and I told him I could arange it. On saturday mornings my perents leave to do the shoping and I know my sister sleeps late, so I called my friend over to our house. I know she justs sleeps in her panties so it was going to be easy to expose her in front of my friend. I picked the lock open and we both went in quietly and lifted her sheet off. She was sound asleep face up as we looked at her perfect midium size breasts and beautiful long leggs. She just keept sleeping as we were looking at her small panties and trying to see her pussy through them. I think we went to far because we picked up her leggs and yanked her panties off and held her with her leggs apart to get a good long look at her pink pussy. She finally woke up an screamed with embarrassment realicing she was totaly naked and her leggs held spread out. We let her go as she barely covered herself with a pillow. Days past and she never said a word about it. I later regreted what I did to her and now supect she’s waiting to get back at me when I least expect it.

after a very drunken night with a male friend he passed out on the sofa i was feeling horning and had a massive erection i started to masterbate the next thing i remember i was sitting on the floor near my friend i reach to his groin area to feel his cock i could stop myself i undone his zip and started to feel his cock he became erect so i thought he wanted me to continue so i had a lick then i put his cock in my mouth had a little suck i then fell asleep he woke up and ran out he hasnt spoke to me since and he keeps avoiding me i hate my self for what i have done but i really miss him but he wont answer my calls or texts

I get drunk whenever I can which is pretty much all the time. I know I’m an alcoholic. I’ve tried therapy and AA but it didn’t help. I’m not writing this about my drinking problem but about what happens every time I drink. As soon as I am drunk, I want someone to eat my pussy. I will grab any man that comes along and offer it to him. I usually don’t have a hard time finding takers because I am very pretty. I never have intercourse or anything else, I just want my pussy licked until I cum. Afterwards I feel awful. Most guys want to see me again but I don’t ever want to see them again. I am ashamed and feel dirty. I swear it won’t happen again but once I’m drunk, I get all horny and do it again. Even when I cum, I feel so empty. It seem I’m caught in a trap.

I want to confess that when I was in elementary school I choked a kid… I got enrolled into the reading aid program when I was in like 5th grade and i taught this young kid, he was like a 2nd grader. He viewed me like the older brother he never had, I do not know why but I grew to hate this kid. He looked up to me and I despised him. I’d chase him off when it was lunch or recess, i’d choke him at times to tell him to keep away from me. I had built up anger and rage from my own familial problems.

I realize that I was just a young stupid kid, but now that I have taken some psychology classes I see how badly I probably effected his psyche. I feel horrid about it every day. Yet I know there isn’t anything I can do… Apologizing would only expunge my guilt, it would do nothing to help him at this point if I even knew where he was or what his last name was even.

I do not know what I seek in this confession, all I know is that I wish I could take it back. But of cource, that is not posible… I guess because there is nothing else I can say or do. I’ll say apologize anyway…

I’m sorry Andrew… I hope you turned out ok…

I think I’m pregnant. AGAIN. You’d think after one scare I’d be more careful. The condom slipped off again. We should have been more careful. I should have been more careful. I can’t believe this. I’m freaking out. I turned 16 only three weeks ago.
I didn’t even really want to have sex this time. I’ve been going through so much lately, my emotions weren’t even in it. I figured that if I kept going with the physical, the emotional would soon kick in. I just couldn’t say no to him. We get to see each other alone so rarely. And we were both looking forward to it. But when the moment happened, the mood just didn’t strike me. And it hurt like hell. But he’s such a sweet boy and he loves me. And I love him. I just can’t tell him this. He goes to church each sunday for goodness sakes. Even though we were both each other’s firsts, sometimes I think that I also took away HIS innocence. And lately I think that the only way he can express his way of telling me he loves me is through the physical. And right now all I want is the emotional.
Now I don’t know what to do. I’m so frightened. God help me.

While my wife was sleeping, the window cleaners came. I don’t know why, but i opened the curtains, and pulled back the bedclothes, leaving her completely exposed. I left the bedroom door slightly ajar and stood on the landing so that I could see the window cleaner when he got to the window. He did a double take when he saw my wife then went back down the ladder. Within seconds the other cleaner was up the ladder enjoying the view too.
I regretted my actions afterwards, but at the time it was great

My friend’s husband is a pervert that raped me. I hate his very essence and want him to suffer like he made me suffer.

He always commented on how he loved my breasts because they’re 36Ds and his wife’s are barely filling an “A” cup but she is BEAUTIFUL, inside and out. Well one time I was over to their home. He was not there, at first. Her mother called, needing a ride to pick up a prescription. My friend asked me to stay at her home while her newborn was sleeping. I agreed. I thought the perverted JERKWAD wouldn’t be home any time soon because he’s always out, fucking anything with a pussy. Well, he unlocks the front door, comes into the den and looks at me all surprised. He noticed that his wife’s car was not there so he asked me where she was. I told him that she left to take her mom somewhere. He comes over to me, really close and says, “oh so we’re all alone now!” He grabs at my shirt and sort of yanks it down, exposing my breasts. He sorta lets out this moan and tries to bury his face between them. I pushed him away, called him every cussword I knew and tried to ease past him. I thought my words would piss him off and he’d leave me alone.

WRONG. Turned him on even more. He grabs at me and slams me so hard to the floor that the wind was knocked out of me. He straddles me, bends down and starts licking all on my neck. I was terrified and begged him to stop and reminded him that his baby was in the other room asleep. His exact words were, “I’m trying to make a baby with you!” He raises my shirt above my head, pulls my bra up to the collar bone and starts suckling my breasts. This guy is muscular and tall and VERY strong. I always thought when women said they couldn’t get someone off of them they weren’t trying hard enough. Now I understand. Anyway, I prayed for my friend to walk in and catch him in the act. She didn’t. He raped me that night, violently. His penis was so huge…my god how do women handle that? I felt like he was ripping me apart. And he moaned and moaned and commented on how tight my “snapper” was and how he fantasized about doing this to me. I mean he actually was enjoying himself while I cried, pleaded and begged for him to stop. It made me sick. I wish he would hurry up but he didn’t. He took his time and he ejaculated inside of me and when he did, he tried to put all of himself inside of me, which (later on finding out) did something to my cervix and I believe tilted my uterus. I wanted to die right there. I was so sore and hurt that I thought I would die.

I didn’t know what to do. When he was finished, he said that if I thought of telling I might as well forget about it because she’d never believe me, which was true. He can do no wrong in her eyes.

I wondered where she was at and secretly blamed this on her. Why the hell would it take so long to go to Walgreens???!!!!!! I wasn’t there when she came back. As soon as he got off of me and I put my tattered clothing back on, I was out of there.

When I walked out of that house, I could feel his semen seeping out of me and into my panties. Makes me sick just thinking about it. I didn’t end up pregnant and thank god for no STDs but mentally and emotionally I am totally fucked up. When I got home I took a shower, I know I shouldn’t have but I had no intention on reporting it. I noticed that I had some blood in my panties along with some semen. My neck had purplish blotches on it, which were hickeys. My nipples were raw from him sucking them so hard. My stomach was cramped up and I bled all night. I went to the doctor the next day. She asked me if I had been assaulted because of how my cervix looked but I denied it. I just wanted it to all go away. But it hasn’t!

My friend did call me the next day and asked why I left and I simply said I left because he came home. I’ve been trying to forget this but I can’t because he still harrasses me and still says lewd things. I want it to stop!!!! He has ruined my life. I no longer have a boyfriend and I don’t want to have sex ever again.

I have all but stopped going over to my friend’s house because he’s there and he still harrasses me. I have changed my home number and cell many times but he always manages to find it. Why can’t this idiot just leave me alone? Why mess with me?

Ok, so I guess this is where I can confess and get things off my chest. Just so all of you know, I am a married man with two beautiful children and a loving wife who I couldn’t be happier with. This all happened before I was happy…

I had been talking to my friend on the phone (she is now my wife) who lived in a different part of the country then I did, and at this point I had never met her. I met her off of the internet. The day before she flew up I went to another friends house because she called and asked me to come over, we’ve had history together, so I went. As we were sitting on her couch watching T.V. she leaned into me an aggressively pushed her tongue in my mouth, it was beautiful. I wanted her so bad, she said she would give it to me again if I just forgot about my “cross country friend” and stayed with her. Needless to say I couldn’t do that so I left for my home.
Well I met my future wife for the first time and things were good at first I never told her about that night before I met her. A few months after I met my future wife but she went home…
I met these two college females a month later and would hang out with them alot. We played alot of beer games, strip poker, kings, make-out sessions, etc. I also felt, not fingered, but felt one of the chicks pussies one night.
That college rendezvous lasted short, my future wife came back from across the country. We definitely had a rocky relationship the entire time, I never fooled around when she came back. When she went back to her home state we found that she was pregnant so I quickly had to grow-up. Well, I joined the Army (which I hate). As I was in training and my now Wife at home pregnant I went to a strip club and ended up giving this older 33 yrs old stripper, I was 21 yrs old, a finger bang for what seemed like for ever. As she was giving me a lap dance she let me rub her pussy through her thong, then under her thong. She was really wet so I slid my fingers, two of them, in her pussy and felt her entire cunt as I was fingering her I had the hardest cock but was to torn to do anything about it. After I was threw, she barely spoke or understood english and told me she had cum and would be right back to take care of me. I felt really dirty so I sneaked past her into the bathroom and washed my hand, several times, and went back to the barracks. To this day I wonder what it would have felt like to fuck her pussy with my cock. Oh well I’ll never know, I’m so in love with my wife and everyday I’m sorry for what I’ve done, but I’ll never tell her for shame of myself.

I want someone and almost the entire reason why is that I perceive he does not desire me the way I do him. This is a pattern I have repeated regularly throughout the past six years. I am fed up with myself, because I am completely incapable of having a normal, functional relationship. As soon as I “get” them, as soon as they show a reciprocal interest, I run away. Wow, I have also made some really piss poor decisions over the past four months, and that is adding further complications. I seem so together on the surface; people would be stunned if they knew some of the fucked up shit I’ve pulled.

I just always make the wrong decicions and i do things that cud ruin my life, and that im not proud of at all. but its like i am always sad. and even though i hate it, somehting about me likes being sad because im dramatic like that. Pstch! im just a teenage girl who need to grow up.

I had sex with my boyfriends when I was 17. We usually get laid every month and i got pregnant two years later. It’s all because of our future and an opportunity for me to study overseas, i gave it up nad went for an abortion when our baby was only 1 month old. I am very sad and regretful still .

I married the wrong man. I’m not miserable, he is very nice, but aftern 20 years, I realize how much I miss having a “life” partner. Someone who will talk to me, hold me, plan with me. I feel like a single parent with a nice roommate. I ended up marrying a business and not a man. When I think about it, I am very depressed.

This is a true confession- I’m mother of 4. A month ago I was on a drinking binge, one of my sons was sleeping in my bed, I was in a dream like state and I ended up putting his penis in my mouth, not to ejaculation but in the context of the dream. Maybe 3 or 4 minutes, now I wish I was dead. I wish I’d ran him out of my room. I’m physically sick. I’ve prayed until I just hurt and I don’t know what else to do.

i regret leaving the smashing pumpkins