3
Dec
i like watching a porn movie and masturbated when i got stressed out but in front of a people i’ve said that i don’t like ,and i feel so disgusting with myself
I’ve fallen out of love with him. I don’t know if it’s guilt or what, but now i cant be around him. I dont like him touching me anymore. When he kisses me, my stomach churns. I dont know how i’ll ever be able to have sex with him again. And everything I once thought was cute or endearing annoys me.
I’ve been with him for such a long time, I dont know where I end and he begins. Our whole lives revolve around each other. Our friends all are friends. Our families are inseperable. I dont want to break up the life that we have. Everyone thinks we’re perfect together. Except me.
I’m crumbling it all from within. I’m trying to act like nothing’s wrong. I’m trying to think that it’s just a passing thing, that I will fall back in love with him again. But I can’t. It’s just me.
16
Dec
My boyfriend finally talked me into having anal sex. It was the BEST sex I’ve ever had. I’ve never had a more intense orgasm than when I could feel his hard cock thrusting in and out of my ass. The problem being when he pulled out there was crap on the end of the condom. It really grossed him out and now he refuses to do it again. I think I might have to start cheating on him just to get someone willing to fuck me in the ass. Now that I’ve felt how great it is, I cant just not do it anymore.
I let my best friend use my bedroom to give her boyfriend a blowjob(who she had just met for the second time because he lives in Graz (long distance relationship going on there))
I didn’t find out till about 3 months later… and I still hadn’t changed the sheets!! SO disgusted about it!
I find it disgusting to masturbate … but I still doin it.
