Confession Point

I want someone and almost the entire reason why is that I perceive he does not desire me the way I do him. This is a pattern I have repeated regularly throughout the past six years. I am fed up with myself, because I am completely incapable of having a normal, functional relationship. As soon as I “get” them, as soon as they show a reciprocal interest, I run away. Wow, I have also made some really piss poor decisions over the past four months, and that is adding further complications. I seem so together on the surface; people would be stunned if they knew some of the fucked up shit I’ve pulled.