It’s the same deal every few days… I download videos that just about every rational person thinks (or at least supposedly thinks) that nobody should have (underage sex, incest, gratuitous violence, etc.) I get off on having something I shouldn’t have, then delete it, and tell myself that I should never do that again.
When the doorbell rings, if I’m not expecting somebody, I become momentarily afraid that some form of law enforcement has found proof of the things I’ve watched, and could somehow retrieve them from my computer.
Most people believe I am one of the safe people… The kind of guy that you could leave your children with, and not worry… What would they do if they knew?
I am married but I still find myself thinking about other women sexually. I even have a certain female friend who often teases me about sleeping with her. I can’t help but think about what it would be like. Now, I am not a cheater nor have I ever been, but I worry that I will not be able to control myself one of these days. I am not sure what to do.
I’m 14, 15 in January, and very physically mature for my age.. i started getting facial hair when i was 12 and chest/pubic hair around 13. my penis has also grown larger, pretty big for someone my age i guess..about 6 inches. im 5′ 11″ 165lbs. and caucasian.
I was adopted a few months ago by 2 very awesome people..i love them very much! they have a 10 year old son and 16 year old daughter..the trouble is, ever since the first time i saw the daughter (ill call her “Katie”) i’ve been very physically attracted to her and she’s shown interest in me too.
the other night our parents went out for their 20th anniversary dinner and left us 3 kids alone in the house for the night. “Katie” and i dropped “Nick” (the 10 year old) off at a friends house for a sleepover at 9 o’clock. then “Katie” and i started watching the movie Wedding Crashers in our parents room. When it got to the “hand job scene” at the dinner table, “Katie” noticed that i was aroused and asked if i’d ever gotten one. i said no because i hadn’t. she asked if i wanted one and i said yes. she started just to rub my jeans jokingly and then slid her hand down my boxers and was surprised at my size and then i could tell she was turned on. she unbuttoned my jeans and ripped them off. she had this look in her eyes that kinda scared me but it made me feel really good too. so she started rubbing and sucking me. i didn’t know what to think but then i really started enjoying it. and we made out and had oral sex from about 11 to 1. she then asked if i wanted to go farther and i said not right now. she was fine with that and then we went to sleep in our parents bed.
i woke up at 9 the next morning to find “Katie” completely naked straddling my crotch area and we proceeded to make out more and then she gave me a quick blow job and rubbed her butt up against my penis and said “there’s more where that came from.” then we had breakfast together. she said if i wanted to we could keep having oral sex and maybe more for as long as i wanted to. i really want to because we’re attracted to her but i don’t because i don’t want our parents to find out. help!
I am 13 but i had sex for the first time a few days ago.
im exhasted. ok so the rents r gone ferr the night they had to go to my 2end house in poconos to winterize the place or sum shit like tht. so i told my bf he can com overr. so we listend to music and blablabla and then we started making out like we always do but wit a lot more toungh action. then he started putting his hand on his shirtt and i luved it. so then he pulled off my shirt and started sucking my nipples. it felt nice. then he took off his pants while i took off mine. we were both completly naked then he put his penis inside of me at first it hurt so muchh i was yelling like crazy and we were worried the neighbors were gunna call the cops (lmao) but then i started bleeding (ouch) but after a while it started to feel reaallly good. just that feeling of his whole penis right inside of my vagina filling it up.my pussy devouring his penis tht was so nice. he wanted to take a break from tht and then put his nice toungue on my moist very wet pussy i started to cum. then we went back to his penis in my vagina, i finally had a orgasm. it was awesome, my whole body was shaking and i was screamin wit my eyes closed. but then i found out he cummed inside me!!!! and i took a pregnancy test and it sed positive and it was a very accurate one but i didnt believe it.. so i went to my aunts doctor [i didnt wanna go to my moms doctor just incase she wud find out] and i asked her to check. AND I AM PREGNANT!!!! HELPPPPP!!!!! IM ONLY 13!!!!!!!! WUT AM I GUNNA DOOOO?!!! how am i gunna have the baby? i barly can handle a little penis in me but now a whole baby?!! i cant give birth. and my mom wud about kill me if she found out. she duzzen even let me (or know) i have a boyfriend!!!!
YIKESS!
helpp!!!
plz comment and tell me if u have had any simular expieriences and kno wut to do.
After I got out of the Marines…All I can think about is killing people. I don’t hate people. I’m pretty normal…but I dream about hitting men with pipes and smashing Men’s faces into concrete. It’s never about women. I don’t understand…I told the VA but they won’t help me. The USMC says I’m lying… I can’t afford to go to a docter. I’m scared I might actually hurt someone one day…
Right now I feel like killing myself. Fucking depression. Why the FUCK won’t you leave me alone for ONCE in my GODDAMNED LIFE?! WHEN will I get my control back?
I know I can’t help it, it’s just the way I am. There’s nothing I can do about it. But it’s been too long. There’s nothing I should be upset about right now. My life is fine. It’s just me. I can’t let me be happy. I’m getting progressively worse.
My worst punishment imaginable. Being forced to watch myself crumble from within. Dying in my own mind. This is the monster that I live with, every single day. I can’t explain it to anyone. The mention of depression makes them shy away like I’m contageous. I can’t explain how it affects me. How it controls me. How i CANT STOP IT.
The worst thing is that I know I will wake up in about a week and all of this will have gone away. I will wake up feeling just fine and dandy. And then all I can do is wait. Wait for the next episode. Wait for a few months time where something ticks me off and sends me down this familiar spiral.
I’m frightened, and terrified and there’s nothing I can do.
Do you know what I hate!? I hate being a teenager. I know that this is a weird thing to say, but I hate it. I hate it because you are so horny. All of the hormones and shit are just starting to come at you full blast. I’m afraid that I will do something with someone, if you get my drift. I just wish that there was a numbing cream that you could put on you thing until your married. THIS SUCKSSSSS!!!!
I used to have an addiction to anti-depressants but got past my addiction, hadnt had any for a while but then last summer i had a couple more and have a couple here n there now n i’m just worried about becoming addicted again, but who am i supposed to ask for support im still a teen and no friends will understand
Somtimes I hate people so much that I have fantasies about going to a public place and opening fire on everyone there.
I constantly fantasize about going berserk and slaughtering and torturing people.
