I have a confession to make, that I am becoming obsessed with a musician who I only know slightly as friends… and in my mind, he is in love with me too… I have evidence of this but I don’t know if I am losing touch with reality.
I look at pictures and videos of him everyday for the past week or so… I wish he were in my real life… my real life is starting to feel so empty… I feel that he is my soulmate.
I am so much like him, but I am inward in my world whereas he is always performing…
I first met him a year and a half ago, and I loved him right away but tried to hide my feelings because I didn’t think anything could happen. But every time I see him, he is so happy to see me and we talk for hours. But he has never tried very hard to contact me, outside of a few emails.
I am afraid because he is a public figure that I am indulging my feelings and getting being a fan mixed up with being a lover or a friend, and that I will ruin things by feeling too much… but if I keep pretending I DON’T feel as much then nothing will happen between us.
Confused, in love or something in between obsession and angst-ridden love?
1:58 am on February 5th, 2009
time will make it clear . wait and see,
7:27 am on February 7th, 2009
I’d say you are becoming a little obsessed, but it must be hard to stop thinking of him, right? I think you need to try to think of something else. It sounds as though, like you said, your lacking something in your life that you’re putting into him. If you feel this is becoming a problem, eg. like you said “losing touch with reality”, I would think about going cold turkey, not talking to him anymore, ecetara. But just decide if this is healthy or not, and if it will just end up hurting you. Good luck, man.