Confession Point

I am a bi male, I haven’t had my first with a guy yet, but I really want to, I get a massage from time to time from a really hot male massuse, he rubs my ass really good and I want him to take it further but I am to scared to ask him too, its hard to tell if he would. I bet if when I turned over with a big hard on he would get the picture. after the massage is over I always jack off in the room when he leaves. I would love to suck his cock and let him fuck my ass, I just cant tell if he would be into it. I think he is married, but he has no problem giving me very good kind of sensual massage, no man could rub my naked body the way he does and not be a little gay. I have a sexy body and have been told I’m hot.

I just want him so bad, there has got to be a way to make this happen…any advice? I don’t want to insult his professionalism or be rejected, but I just dont know what to do. He is the only guy I have ever been attracted too and I can’t seem to shake this crush. How do I let him know without ruining what I already have, If he didn’t want to have sex with me I dont think I could continue going to him for massages, which I really enjoy and I don’t want to stop seeing him, It definitely is the best massage I have ever had even without the “happy ending”, some good advice would be helpful.