I love my man and i have allways enjoyed giving oral to him soo much. The problem is I am self-conscious and I was pretty sure I was awful at it. So I kept on insultinghim and insinuating that I disliked it, I guess so that he would not bag on me. He has had a history of experience with women and he is the only man I have had any experiences with. By the way were both pretty young. Now as a result he wont let me give him oral and it has affected our relationship on so many emotional and “physical” areas. I told him the truth about it all but he thinks I am lying and wont bother with me at all saying he doesnt want to go through the same shit again. I feel that I have rejeted him in a bad way and offended him. Nothing I say or do helps. I want to satisfy his “urges” but that is completely off limits and my very sugestion angers him. I know I deserve the rejection he is giving me. Now everything is messed up and all I do is try to fix things. My confssion is that I want one of those “easy” buttons from those tv comercials but yet still I dont because this experience has allowed me to open up to him on so many levels even though it seems he doesnt belive me in any of them.
